F Them Folks

  Ahhh. The humble beginnings of "F&%k Them Folks". I can remember it like it was yesterday. Actually, I probably said it yesterday. LOL! "F&%k Them Folks," or "FTF," was birthed in the early stages of my healing journey. Yup, cussing helped me heal. LOL! Most of who I was at that time was created by the feelings and thoughts of others. I didn't want to offend anyone. I wanted people to like me. I wanted to do IT right (whatever "it" was at the time).  But people's opinions were in conflict with the woman I needed to become to be happy. Every time I did some healing work, I would find myself thinking, "What will THEY think if I stop showing up for family functions?" or "What will THEY say if I focus on spirituality?" I found myself in a battle between my Authentic Self, and the Self that wanted to be accepted.  My truth, at that time, was that I was broken. Horribly broken. Traumatic event after traumatic eve